The Problem Is The Real Problem

The Problem Is The Real Problem I wanted to be an actress when I was 11. I didn’t want to be famous or rich or nothing. People may or may not believe this, but yes this true. It is too late now. I want to succeed in life before I die! But that is all over. I have an anger problem and it’s only getting worse. I was born with it. To me, wanting to be an actress is like a fantasy world as I was told when I was a little kid on the block. I have often thought that I was not good enough. Most people will not believe this. Quick question: Am I good enough? I will ask others because they seem to know what’s best for me, because I can’t make decisions what-so-ever. So my question is- Am I good enough? Am I worthy enough? Do you believe that I have something wrong with me? Do not tell me what to feel, as I always felt this. I just could not articulate this very well. I could not explain things very well. Well in my opinion in anyway. In someone else’s opinion, I can’t control. I don’t have any control over someone else’s opinion. I just agree with everyone that I have an anger problem and that I run down the hall screaming when I am upset, in turn literally scaring people. I just type at people saying that I scare people and (guys) just seem to want me more...I can't figure that out. One even wanted to meet me and wanted to “just be friends”. I want to be friends with them but I don’t know if he wants to even talk to me again.