A negative thought came up when I was in the shower. (another moods blog entry)

When I was in the shower a while ago. I thought of a positive thought and a negative thought. The positive thought was: After the renovations and after a couple of years, I would be ready to move and by then parents would be so old that they would not be able to take care of the house or themselves. That was what I realized July,2012. (sad thought, possible tissues) Then followed by that came a negative thought. A voice popped up from behind a negative thought was: "Hadn't you better wait a few years" and "I think you should wait." another voice from the negative thought chimed in.

My Negative thoughts turn to frustration, which lead to anger, in turn lead to people being afraid of me. My moods go somewhere in there which are really low that I don't feel like doing anything. What does that mean? Probably nothing, right? And that I should not worry about it. Correct?

See, I just learned that frustration is only a primary of anger.

I will succeed even if it kills me!