Moody I think. (what does this mean?)

Okay. I feel like I wanna die Oh well. I can't do anything about it now. It's too late. It's been like this all my life--believe it or not. I am wondering what this means. Does this have a name? Should this be something to worry about. I can always read a book on this for my moods to get happier and more opimistic. My question is what book would you recommend?

It would probably be best if I just stay away from people every two weeks and not go anywhere during that time period.

I just found this. Problem, I don't like to do anything I like when I am in a bad mood? If this is just moody that only have? I have decided that what I have is only being moody. Oh well. At least I know its just moody. Now to get over this. What book would you recommend for this being moody?

I can listen to music, or exercise if I am not so immerced in that bad mood that I am told to sit on the stupid couch for a while. I guess anyone can tell an over 40 year old to do something, if they are older than the 40 year old. I must learn to listen if I ever want to be successful, which I do. Why don't I? Well...I always want to be alone. I guess that is normal isn't it? Yeah, I thought so.