My Feelings

Monday July 29, 2013 – hmmm I finally figured out what went wrong from December 20, and three years earlier… I would not talk to the manager of the apartment building I was in on the days that the other people there were pissing me off. I could have prevented all of this shit had I just told her that someone was making me mad. I would have just bought a few books or checked out some books at the library to keep me quiet. I would have just stayed indoors and let Jordan just pee on her puppy pad. It pissed off the manager that I was telling my dog what to do and not letting her just be a companion. Ugh! That’s just not good. I should have just picked her up and carried her everywhere. Well its too late now that my doctor has taken me off anxiety medication and I can’t move out or Can I? Just asking what you think because you think you seem to know what is best for me. They are afraid I might go off on people. Well here is a little short story. After the accident in summer of 1992 I was abruptly taken off anxiety medication. I wasn’t aware at the time what was happening but I do know that I had this horrible stare. I could not figure out why I was looking like that. I wanted to come out of it. I did not like that feeling and I want nothing more to never feel like that again!