Approval of Others.

Approval of others. *sigh* I have to show people that I will not get mad at small things. Well that is going to get very hard because I have been mad all my life. People are so scared of me becoming so angry that I will do something to hurt them! I will not do anything to hurt them, I will only hurt myself. When people see me hurting myself, they think "hmmm is she going to hurt me?". People look at body language even if I don't realize that they are observing me from a distance. Again, people think "hmmm is she going to hurt me?" I hate this! This is bugging the hell out of me. How do I let people know that I won't hurt them? But there is something that people should know... other people will not ask me questions or tell me anything. They just go to to the relative and tell all to them! Assholes! The best way to help me is to calmly..... yeah but they are still kind of apprehensive around me. How do I make them not so apprehensive around me. That is enough bitching for one night. Well that is what Jason calls my "just talking" if words do come out of my mouth. He thinks of it as BITCHING and COMPLAINING. That is what it seems like to Jason... How do I make him believe that it is not "just bitching"? I don't want to be rejected by others. I want to be excepted by others. Sure we all want to be excepted by others but sometimes people become so afraid of others that they tell the nearest relative. They don't even ask the person who is scaring them so badly that they have anxiety attacks. Well that's it for now. Bye.