How To Change Painful Feelings Into Positive Action

The book "When Anger Hurts" I am currently resding has really been helping me. This book makes me think how I act around people. (or if I say anything) That is why some idiot keeps using this stupid ass phrase -- (open my mouth and inserting my foot) Well I am the opposite. I have my foot in my mouth, therefore I cannot speak. It could be the same for other SM and anxiety suffers. I can joke because I am one of those people. (I think) Well Its hard to explain anyhow.

Frustration is the primary of Anger. If one is not frustrated with something, one will not go into angry mode.(I don't want to live in frustration or angry mode anymore) How I get there is Negative Thoughts. That usually occurs when I am sitting somewhere.

How am I going to practice not being frustrated or angry if I am unable to live alone since mostly relatives make you frustrated or angry? Tell me that. hmmm very interesting. I don't really know. I was hoping a doctor would answer that question. But I guess not. I have to keep quiet and reserved. And figure things out for myself.

These are four questions to ask myself in here. In the past, I got frustrated/angry at school/ or work. Then about a year ago, I became aware of it. I didn't want to admit it is what I am trying to say. I would go home and yell and scream at Jason on skype, or post it on Twitter or Facebook. Wrong! NKOTB fans and non-NKOTB fans are now unfollowing me on Twitter and Facebook. So I decided to delete my Twitter and Facebook account and I won't go back on it until after October or so.

Now to the questions.

what stresses pre existed my anger? Negative Thoughts.

What trigger thoughts did you use? Negative Thoughts like who is going to kill me first. (not literally)

Were you angry or were you feeling some other kind of stress before the trigger statements? If I say it was some other kind of stress. Someone is going to kill me. (not literally) And say this was way uncalled for and this needs to stop right now!

Was some of your pre existing stress blocked or discharged by the anger? I guess it was blocked. And someone would say, "Blocked? How? I am not understanding you! I really don't understand." I think she has ADD or APD (auditory processing disorder). You think? And people think I had this shit all these years! Ugh!

Please note that I was the one who obtained this book "How To Change Painful Feeling Into Positive Action,(when anger hurts). Here is how: It was like this. One I was sitting thinking of ways to control my anger and as I thought of "positive action", I blurted it out. So it was from a positive thought I had. I have some negative thoughts and very few are positive. That is where my Twitter and Facebook user names came from.

How come I cannot have another chance. If one life is all you get, then why can't I? Some people can get to do things twice in a lifetime. Why can't I? It is important that if people would forgive and forget, don't dwell on the past! That is what I would like to think. I am not sure if it is true or not and people may think that this does not make any sense whatsoever! Okay. that's all for today.(I think)