I found out what was actually wrong with me.

I have feelings of rejection, feeling like I'm not good enough, worthless, useless, helpless, feeling like I wanna die, and feeling like I am gonna die. I have found out that all this came from being on my period every month. Jason told me that. So I figure it's normal to feel worthless, useless and helpless every three to four days. So all of this is normal--well for me anyhow. That is all that is wrong with me.

After I had written a journal entry, I would have these outbursts of getting angry. I should not have to get angry after I have written a journal entry. But my doctor said it was good that I write in a journal however, I never said that it was an online journal on here. I didn't think it was appropriate.

So yeah--all of this is normal for me.